< angry rant>
[Moose Jaw, Saskatchewan]
Song of the day: (Haven't listened to music yet, but probably something hardcore)
Alright. This is not meant to sound 'Diva-ish' or that I'm starting to get big-headed, but I'm am SICK of having public shows that flop. We had between 30 and 40 people at our CD RELEASE CONCERT in Regina last night, and I'm sure that a fair chunk of those people had comp tickets. The worst of it is: the show was effin awesome! Everything sounded wicked, all of the transitions were smooth, and everyone had fun... but there was no one there!! It BLOWS having to perform for audiences that could fill your first three rows, but they're scattered across the venue suited for 200.
See, we know what the problem is, but it's not easy telling your bosses that they suck at promoting. Especially cause these are the best bosses in the entire world. It's just... they sent posters to the highschool that we performed in to put up, and we were told to go to a mall (the SMALLEST and shittiest mall in Regina, I might add) to hand out flyers. WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSED TO ACCOMPLISH!!!! I guess we were on the News at Noon too, and I heard some people even came out to the show from that. But we just don't have anyone coming out.
Want to know another let down? As awesome as the show in Saskatoon was (and that was pretty effin awesome) we only sold 150 tickets. There were a number of people there with free tickets (from Radio, us handing them out, etc.)so there might have been close to 250 in the audience. But it felt like there were 400 people there, and there should have been, for all the promotion the four of us did. Maybe it's just a full house that makes the difference. If close to every seat is filled, no matter how many seats that is, it feels SO much better.
By the way: anyone driving from Moose Jaw to Regina in the last few days sure didn't do it very fast. Apparently there was freezing rain one night, and the highway between the Jaw and the...Regina.. was super slippery. (I was going to shorten 'Regina', but that wouldn't have sounded good at ALL). There were at least 10 cars in the ditch, two of which were flipped over. But by the time we were driving home last night, the roads were clear as could be.
Speaking of Moose Jaw, hopefully the Release tonight will be better. We've done 2 radio spots, we sang at the Warriors game (which a TON of people saw) and we... what else did we do... oh, we left flyers at all the highschools (but seriously, how many people can THAT bring in).
Whatever. I'm going to take a shower and revive the voice that I lost during our THRILLING concert yesterday.
< /angry rant>
Brennan "Onomatopoeia" Cuff
Here's to the Cardinal Puff Puff, Second blog of the day
[Still in Moose Jaw]
Still listening to Coheed
*POST 2 of 2*
Alright, false alarm. Way to go, Brennan. Sure wasn't listening at ALL when the plan for today was made lastnight.
So I was up and ready to leave the house by 7:45 this morning, like we talked about, and I even had breakfast!
We went to the radio station, did a spot for both AM and FM, and then got back in the van.
See, I thought we were going to Regina to continue our day. NOPE. Sure going back to the house to wait out the three hours until we really had to leave. Sure can't sleep now, cause that just wouldn't do. (C'mon! I've got a new haircut! This is important stuff I'm talkin about here!)
Ps> Haircut = pretty normal. The more I look at it, the more it's nothing all that special. It was just looked really REALLY short as soon as it was done.
What else was I going to put...
Uh, 14 days? That's always a bonus. I refreshed myself on the Tempest last night, and The Cherry Orchard isn't nearly as bad as I thought it was going to be. Now I just have to find a song (Hopefully you and I can find ONE out of the three we've got scores for) and that's about it.
Daneel, I don't talk to you nearly enough. Way to tell #1: I don't have the phone card number memorized anymore.
Rachel, I talk to you slightly more than I talk to Daneel, but that's not enough either.
Vanessa, wow are we going to log some guitar playing/singing time when I get back. (1am kidnapping? Sounds good to me too. I'll call you from the road.)
Brennan "Tap, tap, left, left, right, right, left, left, right, right, bounce, bounce" Cuff
How far to Rolo
[Moose Jaw, Saskatchewan]
Song of the day: In Keeping Secrets of Silent Earth: 3 - Coheed and Cambria
Things that make me happy #243: The first shower after a new haircut.
So I told the girl exactly what I wanted, and I got it. Just more extreme than I was planning. I basically wanted everything on top to stay the same length, and I wanted the back of my head really short, gradually getting longer until it reached the top (where it stayed the same length).
And that's what she gave me.... save the 'gradual' part. I realized this morning it wouldn't be such a shock if the top wasn't all black and the back all natural light brown. I feel like that dog on Bugs Bunny that takes care of the sheep. He's got that shock of red hair that's all pushed forward that comes over his face. I figure that's sooooorta what I look like (without the face covering-ness).
I'm in a hurry. Is any of this making sense? If not, please send one dollar to.... wow am I not creative this morning.
Tally ho. What does that even mean?
Brennan "We live in Saskafunk, Saskatchefunk" Cuff
GOU-let
[Moose Jaw, Saskatchewan]
Song of the morning: It's Gonna Be Me - N'Sync
Don't ask why. It just is.
So I finally sang O Canada for a Blades game!! Trouble is, I did it wearing a Moose Jaw Warriors jersey. Ah well. Can't win 'em all. It sounded really nice, so that was a bonus. But I need to find out what the final score ended up being. It was 3-2 for Sas'toon at the end of the second when we left to do some other promotion.
Seriously, watching the game was like watching Canada play Sweden. (...is that the proper spelling? Whatever) The point is, the score at the end of the 2nd did not reflect the way the game was being played. Good to know that the City of Bridges has a team with a decent shot at the Memorial Cup this year.
Everything's going well on the road. We've got one more day of shows (today), and then it's two release concerts before we hit Highway 11 back to town.
Oh, and ps> the dial tone and the computer whirring are the two sounds of my addictions.
Just incase you were.... wondering.
Brennan "I always think of three or four things I want to type here, but when the time comes I forget all of them" Cuff
Up for air
[Moose Jaw, Saskatchewan]
Song of the day: Dead Computer - Brennan Cuff
Hi! I wrote a song a few days ago. It's called 'Dead Computer' and it goes something like this:
AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Like it? I sure don't.
It was bound to happen sometime. I've been slowly running out of room on my hardrive thanks to music (both downloaded and recorded). I always keep scraping by, but it's not ever really good. All in all, that's the worst it ever got.
So a couple of days ago, our computer just wouldn't turn on. So we fooled around and actually got the thing to get power, but after accomplishing that, it wouldn't actually start up. It just sorta sat there with a couple of lights on. So we tried shutting it off, but the only way to do that was to unplug it from the wall.
My diagnosis (and correct me if you think I'm wrong):
My computer has so little free memory, it doesn't know how to start. And even if it did know how to start, it doesn't have enough free memory to shut itself down.
So we've been sitting with a dead computer for the last few days. And by we, I mean my brother and me. I'm not exactly sure when we were going to tell the 'rents about this, but sooner is probably better than later.
For now, I'll just keep clinging to these one-off posts as often as I can.
Brennan "Wow. That's a formidable scent... It stings the nostrils.. In a good way" Cuff
You ahh
[Saskatoon, Saskatchewan]
Song of the day: Hello Time Bomb - Matthew Good Band
It always seems like nothing ever happens, and then everything happens all at once. Case and point, this week.
Maybe it's because I've been super tired these last few days (and we'll get into that later), but it seemed like shit hit the fan and things got crazy and other things got exciting and other things got revealed, and essentially I've been one large rush of emotion.
Bad news first:
Daneel, an avid reader of little-emo-kid has closed her blog for good. It's really too bad. I know she feels like she's lost a good friend that she can confide in, and writting this I feel like I'm talking about someone that's passed away. I sure hope she continues to visit the site, cause I'd hate to lose both her blog AND her comments.
I've also, once again, been entirely in the middle of a relationship that I can't help being in the middle of. It sucks. Royally. But there's not a lot I can do. I've tried just not mentioning the two parties in front of each other, maybe in hopes that they'll both forget and everyone will be happier. Alas, they found a way to each other anyway, and now I don't know what to do. They're both pissed, and when they're unhappy I'm unhappy because that's the way my life is set up to be at the moment.
On the other hand....
It's been a long time since I've been as happy as I am right now. (Ps> this is the good news). Welcome, Vanessa, to little-emo-kid. Feel free to open a blogger acount to leave personalized messages. But if you don't want to, you can comment anonymously as well (just remember to put your name at the bottom so we all know who you are).
For anyone that's in the dark (which is probably most of you) I am now dating Vanessa Nelson. And WOW is it ever nice to be dating a singer/performer/guitar player/song writer/piano player/voice teacher and to a lesser extent (but still cool) former figure skater.
I don't know if I put her name on the last post, but she was the one I was out with for 16 hours. The last few nights I've been getting less than 3 hours of sleep cause as soon as I'm with her, I don't want to leave.
Here's hoping that the flurry of emotion will subside to a warm breeze of happiness soon (and I'm sure it will).
Brennan "'Nessa? Uh, Nessa? I've got something to confess a reason why, well, that I asked you here tonight....' and thankfully she was thinking the same way I was" Cuff
You can see I've done this before...
[Saskatoon, Saskatchewan]
Song of the day: It's a Beautiful Day - U2
Wow. Three days since a post. And I didn't even get hate comments about it.
Where do I start? I don't even remember what happened the last couple of days.
Speaking of the last couple of days, I'm now on hour.....24? 26? I don't even know. I didn't sleep last night. We went to watch Sunday night comedy (Jodie Peters was effin perfect. He got the first encore ever at Manchester's). AND we went up and sang. It was the first time Balzer was out with us (which was really nice to see) so Jonny brought us up on stage. So I don't know what to expect. No one had a pitch pipe, and this place is effin packed. So we just guessed at the pitch and sang our Barbershop song, and the crowd went nuts. HUGE applause. And after Jodie did his encore, they asked US back up for another song. So we did Sweet Dreams (on one mic I should point out), and the crowd was singing along, and clapping, and cheering for stuff. And at the end, more huge applause. Definitely a good feeling.
Longer story short, we went to the bar (but not before I stopped to pick up Vanessa) and when the bar closed, 'Nessa and I didn't want to end the night. So we started driving and before long, decided on Denny's.
So at 7am, we had to leave cause I still had my dad's van, and he needed it to go to work. So I figured we might just switch vehicles at my house.
So at 2pm, we figured we should probably get a jump on the day and leave my basement. So we hit the bank, then SGI, then AJ's coffee shop (cause I/we needed it something fierce), and then to her house. So I drove her to work and hung out at Dance Saskatchewan for a little bit before leaving to a buddy's house to help him with an assignment.
And here I am, tired beyond all reason. I'm off to bed. Hope everyone's day(s) are/were as exciting as mine.
Brennan "Smile on my face" Cuff
For the rest of you
[Saskatoon, Saskatchewan]
Song of the morning (so far): Sleeping In - The Postal Service
I've been listening to a lot of The Postal Service lately. I hit that point of music downloading, once again, that I have so many songs there is only 60Mb of space left on a given hard-drive. SO I had to go through them all, and in the process stumbled back onto good music.
Speaking of which, I've always noticed Sean's songs of the day are often by 'Godspeed! You black emporer'. Has anyone other than him listened to this band? Can you please verify if they are indeed good? And if so, what type of music is this?
Any help in the matter would be much appreciated.
CONTINUANCE OF NOTICES
Odeon Events Centre
January 23rd
Elim Tabernacle Choir (Opening act)
Adults 12, Students 10
3pm
Thanks to all.
Brennan "I'm immune to drunkeness" Cuff
This was a long time coming
[Saskatoon, Saskatchewan]
Song of the day: Make Yourself at Home - The Starting Line
Excerpts from Song of the day:
She said, "It's good to have you home."
The second that I smelt the scent of my own house I said it.
"Send just one postcard home,
And call as often as you can to tell us how it goes.
Let us know."
I'm out making you proud
So don't wait up, I'll be home soon
I'm out of town for now
You're what makes it home that I'll come back to
"Make it a note to take your time," they begged
"Take baby steps to everywhere, and come home in one piece to us."
You know, it's so good to be home
And know that when I hit the road
I'm thinking of you both, I miss you
And call as often as you can to let us know how it goes.
Let us know."
Thank you for everything
I'm out making you proud
So don't wait up, I'll be home soon
I'm out of town for now
You're what makes it home that I'll come back to
Just for you.
Brennan "Man, do you ever have to see the video" Cuff
Oonagonda, you do the rest
[Saskatoon, Saskatchewan]
Song of the day: Such Great Heights - The Postal Service
It was dial-up at the house in Melfort. I swear, I probably could've posted while I was on the road, but diiiiiiiiaaall-up.
Anyway, I'm back in town now for a good solid two weeks. We've got the CD release party on the 23rd (3pm, Odeon) and a whole bunch of rehearsing and performing between now and then. Oh yeah: Gall, I'm singing at the Blades game on the 22nd, but I'll go to Bud's after it's over. And you're all a bunch of bastards for not making it acoustic. I was really lookin forward to that.
So now we've got Black Jonny into the group seamlessly, and he brings a whole lot to the table (No, I'm not talking about his penis. Man, do we ever make a lot of black jokes now.) Jonny's also got a company of his own in Saskatoon that basically runs stand-up for the city. There is free comedy on Sunday and Wednesday nights at Manchester's on 33rd and Idlwyld, and I can definitely see myself hanging out there on those nights that I'm in town. If you all want to try it out, come this Sunday. Good time.
That's about all for now. I need to get to the bank and then to SGI. Apparently the government doesn't like it when I close bank accounts that they take money out of.
Brennan "You guys always beat me to the phone" Cuff
For Keyboard Shortcuts
[Saskatoon, Saskatchewan]
Song of the Day: O Canada - HOJA
Yep, sure sang O Canada at a hockey game for the first time last night. That's been a long time coming. I've been rehearsing for that moment since I was 2. Seriously, ask Ronnie and Connie. Little Brennan playing hockey on his living room floor, driving his tricycle around as a zamboni, and making everyone in the house stand while he takes off his little helmet and sings O Canada at the top of his lungs before he can start playing.
Is it a surprise to anyone that I'm an actor?
Yesterday was good on the whole (That's what SHE said). Performing songs at the intermission of the hockey game was fun, the rehearsing wasn't all that bad, and it's nice to know that Aaron and I fall back into our old rythym like nobody's business. Oh yeah, and we spent part of the day killing time by having a bite to eat in Melfort's bar, and shooting a few games of pool. (This is what I get paid to do)
Now, I mentioned that singing during the intermissions was fun, but there was one slight bump in the road. See, we went on the ice to sing as soon as the zamboni was done flooding, so that left us 6 minutes or so to sing. The problem is, the Nipawin Hawks (visiting team) kept coming on the ice 3 minutes before the horn sounded. So they were all sitting on their bench waiting for us to finish singing so they could get on with their game. And as many of you know: hockey players don't exactly appreciate the art of acappella.
This leads me to the Quote of the day, in Melfort 7-11 just before we hit the road home:
Aaron Check: (Looking through car magazines)
Nipawin Hawks: (From the other side of the aisle) Hey look! It's Homo.
Aaron Check: (Looking up from magazine) Oh yeah, that Homo thing? That was really clever. How, uh, how was the shower with your buddies? (Back to magazine).
It's good to be back...
Brennan "YEAH ya did..." Cuff
Home again, (repeat)
[Saskatoon, Saskatchewan]
Song of the day: Don't Stop Me Now - Queen
First off, thanks to all the Grant MacEwan kids for a wicked-awesome day at school. For anyone that missed it (and I don't know how you could have), I was a student for a day in Theatre Arts at G-Mac today. WOW what an effin fun time. And special thanks to Leah and Cody for stopping by the site. Much appreciated.
But, alas, now I'm back in Saskatoon, ready to start touring tomorrow. Of course, I wouldn't have got back here without a driving a fair distance, and I wouldn't have started the drive without a proper photoshoot... I mean... proper goodbye.
I'm not gonna lie: sure didn't want to leave you two. You know how Christian Bale leaves with Teddy Roosevelt at the end of Newsies, only to return again because he knew his proper place? Yep, sure was ready to turn the car around once I passed the corner. But I didn't, cause I knew that I would, in fact, actually have to leave Edmonton at some point, and that just would have made it harder.
And on the drive home, this was the order:
Wicked - Musical Soundtrack
Happiness is Not a Fish That You Can Catch - Our Lady Peace
Brennan's Starter Punk CD - Various Artists, compiled by Andrew Boryski
Tell All Your Friends - Taking Back Sunday
Are We Really Happy With Who We Are Right Now? - Moneen
Straylight Run - Straylight Run
Now, aside from the fact that each CD kept me awake because of the change in music genres between CD's, but once in a while a disc would raise certain questions or make certain statements that got me thinking.
For example:
The title of Moneen's latest album is a question in itself: Are we really happy with who we are right now? And Taking Back Sunday's "No I in Team" leaves the line hanging: Best friends means... And finally, Straylight Run makes the comment that: There are no perfect endings.
My thoughts:
Yes, I am in fact happy with who I am right now. I am a talented, but extrememly lucky, young adult with a support system of friends and family that is ridiculously strong beyond all reason. I am enjoying the time I have, whatever it is I happen to be doing at any given moment, and I would like to say that I don't have any regrets about anything, off the top of my head.
I also realized that Best Friends Means: driving wherever and whenever at whatever time of the year to do absolutely nothing and absolutely everything at the same time. You don't understand how hard it was for me to leave tonight. Having said that, Best Friends also Means: remembering that while new people come into your life, you should never forget those that are still beside you. Boys, I'm sorry that I wasn't home for New Years, but now that I think of it: I flew home from Calgary so that last year's party(ies) could happen. So really, I figure I'm on the level.
And as for there being no perfect endings: I don't think I could come up with a more perfect ending to our perfect week. I was so happy today at school, and last night on our surprise adventure, and everynight I got to hangout/sleepover with you two, and... just everything. I seriously cannot thank you enough.
Well, I go back to work tomorrow, so I should probably hit the hay. And yes, it's work. Don't give me that bullshit. Especially you two. Look at what you do all day...
And what I might soon be doing, too...
Brennan "On the phone I'm all business, Baby" Cuff
Here's to the Cardinal Puff, first blog of the day
[Edmonton, Alberta]
Song of the day: Llueve Cada Domingo - Greystone Singers
And the votes are in:
Today is voted the best day, so far, of this Edmonton trip.
It all started last night, sitting up in Rachel's room reading over Chekov plays with the girls.
"Twenty-one gun salute!"
"SSSHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!"
And then a talkative time with Daneel for a few hours.
"Postroliavich"
"What?"
"Postroliavich"
"......"
"mmmphmmbph...Rachel...mbphm..."
A wonderful wake up with the girls. Two cups of coffee, perfect toast, a warm sweater, seeing the girls off, back to bed to read Wicked, and sleep till afternoon.
Got up, showered and changed, left the house to do my banking, only to realize that my paycheck was back in Saskatoon. So what do I do when I'm driving around Edmonton with no where to go?
So I'm at West Edmonton Mall, and I parked near the Hotel entrance. I figure it was one of the only times I'm going to be at the mall and not have to use the Burbon Street entrance.
Such a relaxing and pleasurable experience. I bought a cup of coffee from the most Canadian Tim Horton's in the country: the only one I know that looks over a hockey rink. I enjoyed that cup while watching some girls warm up for their Figure Skating competitions.
I tell ya, I've spent more hours on ice than you would care to shake a stick at. I've been all over the country playing hockey, and live and breathe the sport whenever I can. But these girls were something different.
Maybe it was just because I was on the second level and couldn't hear the blades cutting the ice, but they were just so effin gracefull. They just glided wherever they went. And it dawned on me: I've dated my share of dancers, and they seem to fit with me. But it never occured to me that Figure Skaters are the perfect blend of dancer and ice-skating lover. And they're so effin hard to find. Think about it: how many figure skaters are you friends with? (If you ARE friends with them, PLEASE pass my name along.)
On my way back to the other end of the mall, I stopped in to watch the Waterpark. And wouldn't you know it, as soon as I entered the room, the horn sounded to announce the start of the waves. It's truely amazing how much that waterpark looked like a miniature self-contained ocean. The waves, the people wadding at the shallow end. It was fun to watch.
From there it was back down to the Santa Maria, to have the first Cinnzeo Cinnamonroll I ever remember having. It was too good. I'm sure I wouldn't have been able to take more than one.
And now I'm here back at the Bowron residence. I finished another few chapters of Wicked, and now I get to listen to the beautiful piano playing of Mrs. Bowron while I update my site.
Like I said before, too effin lucky.
And I get to see the girls tonight, and I get to be a 'student for a day' tomorrow in the Theatre Arts program and Grant MacEwan.
Yep, bar none: best day ever...
Brennan "Are you a Cardinal? You bet your sweet ass I am" Cuff
Here I Sit
[Edmonton, Alberta]
Song of the day: Change - Wide Mouth Mason
Well I'll be. Who'da thought that garble of a post yesterday would spark some interest in readers.
And 'Hello' to Clayton, and welcome to little-emo-kid. I sure hope you find time in your busy Torontonian schedule (that's "shed-jule") to continue reading this site.
So it's 1pm on Wednesday January 5th, 2005 (Wow. First time writing the date and I didn't put 2004). I'm sitting at Uncle Brent's computer. Thank God Clayton let me have another shot at taking him to the airport. I really really wanted to take him the first time he asked me, but it was just too early in the morning for a guy on his last few days of holidays.
Speaking of which, I received an instant message from Aaron Check saying that I have to be back in Saskatoon for Friday night. I don't know all the details, but I'm sure I'll find them out soon enough.
What I DO know is: that kinda blows. I know it's only a day earlier than when I was planning to head back anyway, but it's just the thought that I'm being pulled away from Edmonton earlier than I wanted.
And really, that's probably not a bad thing. I might just get too used to how good I have it here and not want to go back to Saskatoon, and that just wouldn't work at all.
So: here I sit. Waiting to take Clayton to the airport, so I can get to the bank after he's gone, and buy a printer/scanner/copier/fax for my dad, and then see the girls.
And since they've started school, that means Thursday will be full of whatever it is I can find to fill the hours. Wicked, here I come.
And I should also put a message on here about something that crossed my mind as I was trying to fall asleep last night:
I'm so effin lucky. I don't know when it happened or how I keep getting away with it, but I'm just so effin lucky. I got to Uncle Brent's house last night at... 2am? And the door was unlocked, the light was on downstairs, the heater was on, and my bed was turned. All this, without me telling him for sure that I was coming home that night. And I'm leaving his house today with all my stuff, because Rachel's family is so effin nice that they are allowing me to stay there so I can spend more of what little time I have left here with Rachel.
I just wish everyone could feel as home in Edmonton as I do...
Brennan "I just don't understand what I did to deserve this" Cuff
When I Fall Downstairs
[Edmonton, Alberta]
Song of the day: Sit Down, You're Rockin' the Boat - Brother Nicely Nicely Johnson
"Blogger Blogger Thingy Ma Bobber." (Basically I'm just typing everything Rachel says).
(Click laugh, click laugh... followed by regular laugh)
"You're insane".
(More laughing)
Apparently, I'm like 'ghost-writer' or something. It'd help if I knew what 'ghost-writer' was.
"C'mon! It was a TV show!"
I don't know these things.
(More click laughing)
"You're crazy"
I thought I was insane. Jeez, changing the story already.
As I was saying before, there are a lot of sayings from old shows/movies, etc that I just don't know. My goal for the week: sleep as little as possible.
I understand that after talking about old movies/shows, my goal of the week should have involved that.... but really I just want to enjoy more time here in Edmonton by not sleeping as much.
"We've tried sleeping. That just didn't work."
I concur.
Is that how you spell concur?
"I like that word. Let's look it up!"
Alright, you do that. I'm going to keep typing.
Man, this is weird.
"Condiment..."
"Did you ever see..... uh.... uh.... oh, c'mon... they're on an island with the pig... flies... Lord of the Flies!"
No.
"Cause 'conch' is a shell that he used to call them all together. It's a mollusk."
"Concubine. Concur. Oh! You were right! C-o-n-c-u-r."
What can I say? I've got a gift.... for.. guessing word spelling. And for typing conversations as they happen. I should be one of those typing people in a court room.
Or a ghost-writer....
Brennan "Little more conversation, a little less action... jeez, story of my life" Cuff
Uptown, Downtown
[Edmonton, Alberta]
Song of the day: And So It Goes - Streetnix
And I would choose to be with you.
That's if the choice were mine to make.
Welcome home, Dee. I can't believe how much I miss you for only being away from you for a few days.
Brennan "I tried calling first hug, but Rachel just about killed me" Cuff
First of the year
[Edmonton, Albeta]
Song of the day: You're my best friend - Queen
Wow. The last time I posted was on the morning of the 30th. So much has happened since then, I really don't know where to start.
Here it goes:
30th - I'm in the Framing Business
First of all, the whole day of the 30th was one for the books. And not the good books. I'll put my reply letter on here, because I don't have a way of getting you a written letter.
Jessi, I had so much fun being with you, and you are truely someone that deserves all of the good things that come your way. I hate to say it, but I was thinking many of the same things as you for the last little while. It's just... for the best. I, as well, hope that we can go back to how things were back in the Pixie days. But I'm not gonna lie, it might take a while.
Hope you're having a wonderful time in BC. Say hi to everyone there for me.
As for the rest of the 30th, I went for dinner with Amanda Stephenson for her birthday, only to find out that I have a very strong reputation as being the 'asshole that doesn't ever come out, even when I'm in town'.
So, feeling bummed, I rounded up the boys and hung out in my basement for the night.... only to get shit on by all of them (and Brodie) for wanting to come to Edmonton.
Wow. Shitty, shitty day. (Ray, we should both have just picked up the phone :) ).
31st - Nothing changes
Well, I tried to leave my house around 11-ish. And I succeeded!.. Only to go say goodbye to Daneel, and stay in town till 2:00. (and even THAT wasn't long enough. Man, I was so dissapointed when I didn't get a second goodbye hug when I dropped off your purse. Ah well, I'll see you soon!)
Driving was nice. I listened to so many CD's.
Once I saw Clayton, everything was back to the way it should be. I never realized how much I missed that guy until he was running over to hug me (and I was running to him). And then going straight to the bar after I was introduced to everyone.
And then the phone call. "Where are you?!" "Uh.. Julios Barrio?"
And then the stairs. And no words. Just hugs.... endless hugs.
I know the night was almost perfect for them. And it's not to say it wasn't enjoyable for me, just not... perfect. But fun. Definitely fun.
And just for the record, I had girls as great friends for a long time, but last night was BY FAR the most times I've ever been asked if I'm dating my best friend. Not even photo finish. Like, 'Donovan Bailey beets Micheal Johnson as worlds fastest man' finish.
1st - Welcome Home
I never thought I'd be so happy to wake up next to a gay guy after a drunken party.
All day yesterday was great. I met the sweetest, most adirivke woman ever. Rachel, I love your family (Especially that one jewish kid thats an only child? And there are all those pictures of her made into one big picture by her back door? She's cool. I need to spend more time with her)
And the driving, and noticing that car ahead of us...
Ooh I've been wandering round
But I still come back to you
In rain or shine
You've stood by me girl
I'm happy at home
You're my best friend
My New Year's Resolution: Quit forgetting to update my site. Make sure I post on events before they stack up and I forget to write about them.
ESPECIALLY if they involve dinosaurs and bears and otters and....
(ps> you are never living that down. Lindsay and I will make sure of it ;) ).
Happy 2005 everyone.
Brennan "I'm a HOJA" Cuff
